Road2Wholeness

It recently became knowledge to me that since the age of maybe seven or eight, I've been swallowing my pain.  Over the course of my young life there have been some very traumatic moments where instead of speaking of, confronting, or sharing my pain.... I took a big Gulp and simply swallowed the pain.  I swallowed it and allowed it to fester.  I swallowed it and allowed it to grow hands and feet.  I swallowed it and allowed it to crystallize and harden within me.  I swallowed it and told myself I didn't deserve to feel what I was feeling.  I swallowed it and figured it would dissipate or evaporate even.... but No!  Wrong!  I peel back the layers of callus surrounding my heart... and there they are... laughing and smiling; playing hopscotch; having a blast; not thinking about me... just happy to be alive; happy they never got dealt with; never got put to rest.

Seeing this, I was quickly able to match the pain to its manifestation.  I could identify each trauma and see how it bei…

At the age of 17 after graduating H.S. I moved from Maryland to Miami. My life could have went in any direction and it certainly wanted to... I was broken; had No Self-esteem, No Self-Love, No Self-Appreciation and a Poor Body Image.

At age 19 after experiencing a Date Rape, I thought... "Okay NaTisha... we gotta turn this around!" I enrolled in a home based Small Business Administration Course which I completed. I then began attending business workshops wherever I would find them, I enrolled in a 11 week Micro Business Intensive..which I completed. Suddenly things (dreams) began moving and stirring in me.. the feeling to be an entrepreneur had been reawakened in me. I turned to the thing that had got me thru my tough adolescent years... Poetry! I knew it was raw but I knew there had to be more of us... Broken; No Self- Esteem Having; Damn near lost in the world Females walking around and so at age 24 I published my 1st book of Poetry. At age 25, I founded and started my…

No one goes from mountain to mountain in one sweeping leap or motion.  After reaching every mountain top in our lives and in setting out to reach another we find ourselves having to travel the valleys of life.  Yet its important to note that we are not aimlessly moving about in these lower fields but that we are purposely there and with great purpose to get to our next mountain.  So don't be eaten up by those waiting in lay to see you trip or fall.  Keep in mind that you are simply between mountains not residing in the valley but taking in all that you will need to know, need to obtain, need to understand and overstand to get you up that next mountain side.  Embrace the experiences of the valley; your stomping ground; a place where u find your stepping stones along the journey.  And most importantly, in times of the valley which often represents fear and doubt.... Keep the image of your next victory before you.  Play that image daily; matter of fact... play that image like you eat…

I have always said and I still believe weight loss to be about emotional baggage.  Yes at some point you must change your eating habits and your physical routines but if all you do is get about the business of losing weight with no regard to your emotions then you will find another habit to fill the gap.  Trading one addiction for another is never progress it's just a diversion.  Food for many of us is a companion; it's the thing we grab before we retire to our homes on a Friday night...  It fills the social gap and the void of sometimes not having someone to talk to.  It's a blanket of euphoria that keeps us soothed and warm until we again have to face our mirrors.  It's the cushion that breaks our fall every time we face failure, disappointment, or even a deadline.  But why?  What is it all about?  This is the question that has a laundry list of answers all unique to those who has posed it.  For me food is safe... it seldom disappoints!  It provides an escape...  It …

Good Morning Perfect, Whole, and Complete Beings!!

Just a word of encouragement to let u know.... Don't ever try to fight the battle of Reputation or Character on your own.  It will literally be like a dog chasing its own tail! Tiresome and Pointless.... And in the end it will lead you down a bitter road of feeling like everyone is plotting against you or that u are vastly misunderstood.  This is one of those battles that you simply have to hand off to the Gods. 


I stumbled upon a phrase... a piece of wisdom..some years ago that I never forgot.  It simply says "Let Go or Be Dragged".  I've shared this before and I'm sharing it again because it is so IMPORTANT.  A lot of times we want to be freed...not seeing in many cases we have the power to free ourselves.  We free ourselves when we place our faith in God.  We free ourselves when we relinquish the urge to go to war for our Name sake.  Let that go... Let it go because you can't battle the power or brillianc…

Today it feels like its shinning in the tunnel.... You know that tunnel we all keep hearing and commenting about... the one with a light attached to its end.  Well right now I'm feeling really warm because its shinning in the tunnel.  Perhaps this means I'm nearing the end of my current plight or maybe I've changed the way I see things but nevertheless.. ITS SHINNING IN THE TUNNEL!!  That light at the end is shinning right through and giving new light, hope, energy, and purpose to my dreams.  I've carried my bundle with pride and even joy at times....I've carried it with vigor and conviction....I've carried it with love and courage and now the light of day is shinning on me.  I'm almost moved to tears.....its been 6 long years in the desert...it's been dark, lonely, scary.... and at times shame wanted to rear its head; wanted to sit and shit on my effort but TODAY ITS SHINNING IN THE TUNNEL!  Praise Him....I say Praise him......I still got my right mind…

Happy New Year.... Happy Fresh Start... Happy Beautiful Continuation!! 

It's that exciting time of year again when we begin to take a heartfelt look at our lives and willingly make improvements or decide to set our sights a little bit higher and farther into the future.  

Well, I WANT TO WISH YOU THE ABSOLUTE BEST AT THE NEWEST CHAPTER OF YOUR LIFE!!  Whether it feels like a new beginning or a beautiful continuation....Make it Monumental!  Make it the year where you can feel the shift, where results become tangible to the touch; to the eye, make it a moment in time that will never be forgotten and surely not regretted.

MY WISH FOR YOU IS BIG!!

I wish you God's Love, Peace, Will, Wisdom, Strength, and Mercy!  I WISH IT AND I WISH IT IN A BIG, BOLD, BEAUTIFUL, AND UNSELFISH WAY!

Go forth and Be Fruitful....Multiple your gifts, your dreams, your intuitions, your power, your love, your purpose.  Do it now, Do it tomorrow, Do IT ALWAYS AND FOREVER.... Write that Next Chapter, sho…